It's all for Christ!

Am I being treated unfairly? Yes, I am
Am I being criticize? Yes, every single day
Am I crying so painfully for the youths? Yes, only God knows.
Am I working hard trying very hard? Yes, I am
Am I being snare off? Yes, even by the person whom I put much effort in.
Am I being wrongfully accused? Yes, I am
Am I being outcast for pleasing the Lord? Yes, I am
Do I enjoy what I am doing? I can't deny that I am a bit doubtful now.
But will I continue doing it, teaching my youth? loving my youths, surrender my all for the youths? Yes I will.

Because of Jesus.. Jesus loves them very much, so do I (even though sometime it hurt badly)

Does anyone hear her - casting crowns

This MTV is the coolest.

I could not express my emotions when I first watch this MTV, my hair just stand up.. ok i may have exaggerate hahaha

But it was a very cool music video, full of meaning.

Casting crowns is a Christian band who have won in Grammy and Dove Award. Their music considered as soft rock. This band was created in 1999 by a youth pastor. Wohohoh Youth pastor ROCKS!! Well, guys watch out, a youth pastor in Malaysia may be coming with a band soon muahaha.

Jokes aside, the lyric of this song is serious stuff.

These scenes are just too familiar to churches in today's generation, where Christians walking pass those who are hurting and needs God without noticing them. It was a wonderful MTV again and I just love it. Every time when I watch this video, I'll pray that I will not do the same to these people whom God loves very much.

LYRIC:
She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Chorus:
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Lord does anybody even know she's going down today?
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

Chorus

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

Chorus 2x

He is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

Undignified Singapore 2009

Henry made me laughed..
Singapore's gangster headed by tai ko Ashley...
Pengemis di Sinpapore..
Pengemis and the beauty.. (kidding brother ;p)
very nature.. nice pic

Undignified Singapore 2009

Ruth going super undignified.....
Poser konon...... a nice hangout place
Our prof photographer................
Model cum photographer.......
Whose hand is this..?

"Woe to me" I cried. "I am ruined". Isaiah 6:5

My greatest fear when I serve God as a leader of the church is that I may fall and become a Pharisee.

I hate Pharisees and religious teachers that mentioned in the Bible, well most obvious reason is because they crucified Jesus. MMh... And as I went for the study of Matthew last year in BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) I found more reasons NOT to become like them.

(1) What Jesus says of them, "You brood of vipers! Who warned you to flee from the coming wrath? Produce fruit in keeping with repentance." Matthew 3:7

(2) "The Pharisees and Sadducees came to Jesus and tested him.... " Matthew 16:1

(3) "Then some of the Pharisees and teachers of the law said to him, "teacher, we want to see a miraculous sign from you?" Matthew 12:38

(4) "Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You shut the kingdom of heaven in men's faces." Matthew 23:13

(5) Lastly.... "As soon as the chief priests and their officials saw Jesus, they shouted, "Crucify! Crucify!" John 19:6

I am a person no greater than Pharisee, sometime I was as worst as them.

Being a leader and a teacher, many time unconsciously, I feel into the trap of being self-righteous, and I have hurt many of my youths and friends whom I dearly love. I found that it is very easy for us to fall into an attitude that say "I'm more holy than you.." Even though it is my duty to reconcile youths who had drawn far from God, to preach the message of repentance, but a cynical remark and a harsh rebuke is not it!! There is something that I missed while doing these,....I missed grace and a love-filled heart!!

I just do not know what to do, Lord?!

Past few weeks ago, pastor was preaching on Isaiah 6:1-9 in the Sunday Service. Believe it or not? God spoke to me through this passage and there were few incidents when I was in bookstore browsing through some books and I came about this same passage. IT WAS AMAZING, happened twice!! Well Pastor, need to preach it again in the staff morning devotion, with these double doze from pastor who will forget the message.


It says in Isaiah 6:5 - Woe to me, I cried. I am ruined! ....

Woe to me Lord, I am ruined. - Ruthie

My prayer is that I will teach like Jesus not the Pharisees...