God never fails speaking to me directly through through His word alone. Having my daily devotion, to me is the most important thing. It is where the Lord spoke like a clear thunder. His word are always comforting and assuring in helping me through all circumstances in life, whether it is bad or good. God's word is living and real, it is applicable everyday.
This morning before I came to His word I was praying with such burden and troublesome heart. I shunned before my enemies, I felt so weak and I do not know what I can do? As we called to be minister for God, we are to be prepare that our enemies from every side will come to us like a roaring lion trying to grab our helpless sheep away. It was such a sadness for me that I can't do anything.
Before I decided to rise up and be angry with all my enemies, trying to scold them with my best strength, telling them that there are influencing the youths in a bad way. It was example of my fleshly respond, I want justice now. I want God to make them pay for their wrong doing. Forgive my offensive remarks but it takes a minister to understand the sadness that I felt.
Then I ran to His word and the Lord gave me Matt 5:38 - 42. The Lord led me to see my enemies through His eyes of grace. It helped me to see this whole situation in His way.
Matthew 5: 38 - 41, "You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye and tooth for tooth.' But I tell you. Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you."
I learned two great lessons today which help me to settle my troubling heart
1) I learned about true grace. Our natural reaction when we were hit by ours opponent is to defend, to stand up and repay them an eye for an eye ( haha.. don't worry on one lost any eyes in the process of writing this blog =) I bet Jesus will choose not to retaliate and would turn the other cheek. Even though in the eyes of people we may appear weak by not retaliate, but by knowing the true grace in the Lord and refuse to retaliate, we are overcoming evil with good. Jesus say we are to love our enemies. By seeing His grace to me, I can only love my enemies with this same grace He would show me.
2) I almost forgot that being in partnership with God to do this ministry; I got to remember that He still reign over all. I need to have true faith in believing that at this moment where the evil reign, the sheep gone astray, I am to believe that God is not blind nor will He be deaf to my prayer and cry. The sheep is His and He shall call them back and then the evil ones will be under His judgment. My duty is not to be God, but to do the task that the Lord has for me faithfully and with both true grace and true faith in Him. "If someone forces me to go one mile, I will go two miles"
Lord I pray that my heart will filled with Your grace and love, so that I can love my enemies, just like my Master does. Amen.
