It's all for Christ!

Am I being treated unfairly? Yes, I am
Am I being criticize? Yes, every single day
Am I crying so painfully for the youths? Yes, only God knows.
Am I working hard trying very hard? Yes, I am
Am I being snare off? Yes, even by the person whom I put much effort in.
Am I being wrongfully accused? Yes, I am
Am I being outcast for pleasing the Lord? Yes, I am
Do I enjoy what I am doing? I can't deny that I am a bit doubtful now.
But will I continue doing it, teaching my youth? loving my youths, surrender my all for the youths? Yes I will.

Because of Jesus.. Jesus loves them very much, so do I (even though sometime it hurt badly)

Does anyone hear her - casting crowns

This MTV is the coolest.

I could not express my emotions when I first watch this MTV, my hair just stand up.. ok i may have exaggerate hahaha

But it was a very cool music video, full of meaning.

Casting crowns is a Christian band who have won in Grammy and Dove Award. Their music considered as soft rock. This band was created in 1999 by a youth pastor. Wohohoh Youth pastor ROCKS!! Well, guys watch out, a youth pastor in Malaysia may be coming with a band soon muahaha.

Jokes aside, the lyric of this song is serious stuff.

These scenes are just too familiar to churches in today's generation, where Christians walking pass those who are hurting and needs God without noticing them. It was a wonderful MTV again and I just love it. Every time when I watch this video, I'll pray that I will not do the same to these people whom God loves very much.

LYRIC:
She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Chorus:
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Lord does anybody even know she's going down today?
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

Chorus

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

Chorus 2x

He is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

Undignified Singapore 2009

Henry made me laughed..
Singapore's gangster headed by tai ko Ashley...
Pengemis di Sinpapore..
Pengemis and the beauty.. (kidding brother ;p)
very nature.. nice pic

Undignified Singapore 2009

Ruth going super undignified.....
Poser konon...... a nice hangout place
Our prof photographer................
Model cum photographer.......
Whose hand is this..?

"Woe to me" I cried. "I am ruined". Isaiah 6:5

My greatest fear when I serve God as a leader of the church is that I may fall and become a Pharisee.

I hate Pharisees and religious teachers that mentioned in the Bible, well most obvious reason is because they crucified Jesus. MMh... And as I went for the study of Matthew last year in BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) I found more reasons NOT to become like them.

(1) What Jesus says of them, "You brood of vipers! Who warned you to flee from the coming wrath? Produce fruit in keeping with repentance." Matthew 3:7

(2) "The Pharisees and Sadducees came to Jesus and tested him.... " Matthew 16:1

(3) "Then some of the Pharisees and teachers of the law said to him, "teacher, we want to see a miraculous sign from you?" Matthew 12:38

(4) "Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You shut the kingdom of heaven in men's faces." Matthew 23:13

(5) Lastly.... "As soon as the chief priests and their officials saw Jesus, they shouted, "Crucify! Crucify!" John 19:6

I am a person no greater than Pharisee, sometime I was as worst as them.

Being a leader and a teacher, many time unconsciously, I feel into the trap of being self-righteous, and I have hurt many of my youths and friends whom I dearly love. I found that it is very easy for us to fall into an attitude that say "I'm more holy than you.." Even though it is my duty to reconcile youths who had drawn far from God, to preach the message of repentance, but a cynical remark and a harsh rebuke is not it!! There is something that I missed while doing these,....I missed grace and a love-filled heart!!

I just do not know what to do, Lord?!

Past few weeks ago, pastor was preaching on Isaiah 6:1-9 in the Sunday Service. Believe it or not? God spoke to me through this passage and there were few incidents when I was in bookstore browsing through some books and I came about this same passage. IT WAS AMAZING, happened twice!! Well Pastor, need to preach it again in the staff morning devotion, with these double doze from pastor who will forget the message.


It says in Isaiah 6:5 - Woe to me, I cried. I am ruined! ....

Woe to me Lord, I am ruined. - Ruthie

My prayer is that I will teach like Jesus not the Pharisees...

Bad blog

Ahh.. help

I was trying to do a new skin for my blog but it won't work...

i truly like to apologies to my blog reader for a boring blog design muahaha, well even I'm sick with the layout.. like nenek punya blog saja haha.

Be patience until I get some help with my new design... tunggu.....!! ;p

I was touched by an angel.

This morning as I was going online, I received an email from one of my youth leaders.

Without any expectation, I opened the email, I was touch to find out that he has email me some of the materials and resources which he has found online to help me with my teaching for evangelism.

I was really touched by his efforts and I was truly blessed by those resources. I want to say thank you! =)

I have so much joy since I became you guys YD. I was truly blessed by each one of you especially by the six beautiful, most precious "pushers" (the monkeys, I mean the youth leaders).

The grace and hospitality that you all have shown me and had put through with me, were more than kind. Thank you for believing in me guys and thank you for having faith in God that He will do great things in ROCK.

Recently, I had learned greatly from Hudson Taylor, that actually it is POSSIBLE to live a wholly surrendered life to God. It is possible, even in this world now a day where holiness has faded and humans' priority to live for oneself is becoming the first thing in the life of everyone. The "MY" society, the "MY" world! 

Just like Hudson Taylor, I would like to devote my life wholly to serve God, to be use by Him, for His glory!

I may not know when will I fall, when will my heart turn from God, when will this desire to do His will be taken away from me. I don't know when?

Which is why everyday I got to come to Him on my knees in faithful prayer, that I may not turn the other way.  

Receiving the position as YD in KLBC was one of my most satisfying moment in my life.

To be honest, its so much better than being married. Haha I know some of you won't believe it because you all would known how much last time I wish to get married.

Seriously, having married you are only loved by one man, well now being a YD, I'm loved by many, well even its not many, but I know at least the 6 monkeys whom I dearly love, do. (Hopefully..wink haha)

I had learned a truth from BSF... COME FOR BSF..!! EVERY MONDAY 7:30PM IN KLBC. It said that "Having the will of God for you life, are life most satisfying experience." Amen, that is very true!

I'm not being content, even though being the YD its life most satisfying experience, so much more I do need prayer from everyone that I would continue to be humble and teachable and may I will follow His way and not my own. So much more I need prayer. 

I wish I could express my love for each one of you as good as how Paul would exhort his fellow workers.. lol but my expression and ENglishies not so good... bacically its beyond word haha. Love you guys very much. May you all come to know God more and love Him more. 

God be the center of our lives!

 

 

We fall down - Chris Tomlin

You may think I was a bit outdated and would had start laughing at me haha.

Man, I have been singing this song, "We fall down" for ages now and only today I realized that it was originally written by Chris Tomlin.

These has proven two things, first, how little I actually know about Chris Tomlin (shame on you Ruth and you call yourself a supporter of Chris) and second, man, Chris Tomlin is old!! hahaha

I remembered the first time I sang this song in ROCK many many years ago, we was still in TIME SQUARE. I had straight away fall in love with the song once I heard it. Wow, what a humbled adoration to the Lord, where the song sang it first line... "we fall down" We lay our crown at the feet of Jesus"..

This song really show the Sovereignty of GOD.

Ed, Jo and all guitarist do check out this video, they actually teach you how to play this song, the Chris TOMLIN's way!

Be blessed.

I will go

I heard of this song in youtube basically this song really sum up the heart of Jesus for the people of the world.


Here are the lyric:
....................

To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be

(Refrain)
I will go
I will go
I will go Lord send me
To the world
To the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
Clay within your hands
I will go
I will go
Send me

Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to seek the pain
Let the blessing You've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change

(Refrain)

(Bridge)
I wanna live for you
Go where you lead me
I wanna follow you
(x 3)

(Refrain)

Send me!! (x4)


This presentation was made by a youth's group who was reaching out to the lost, poor and needy God's beloved people in Mexico. Everywhere, Everybody need GOD!

Matthew 25:35 - 36

" For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me."

Self-Denial

"If the church is going to grow stronger, then it needs to be full of people who do not live for themselves." (by Malcolm McGregor, Director of SIM)

Churches every where from the West to East, from U.S to MALAYSIA, churches are hungry for a growing and stronger church. Oh, how our heart has sparkled the fire to become the radiant 'bride" for our Bridegroom, Our Lord Jesus Christ.

The call for unity as ONE church is sounding forth like a trumpet. ARISE CHURCH, ARISE CHURCH!!!

My heart felt amazed with His Deity, however my heart felt sorrow for the people of the world. ARISE CHURCH! Let's not look at all the small little misunderstanding that you have among another brother or sister, lets not spend time to hold grudge with another person because he or she was more wanted than you, let's not compare, let's not waste time to live selfish life, let's not chasing after things on earth, let's not love life more than GOD, let's not waste time. Today, I felt overwhelming, I felt the heart of Jesus calling for his church, His bride. When will we able to learn, to be a self-less church for Jesus?

Guys... the harvest is plentiful, but who are willing to go? Even though this is a familiar passage but today I really started to grab the full meaning of this word. When Jesus said this, my dear Jesus must have said it with a painful heart, a heart full of sorrows for He knew many had turn away from Him and His commands and live a life of their own. Oh God.. let me go! Let me go and serve the harvest, this I pray. May this be your prayer too brothers! May this be your prayer too my dear sisters!

I want to follow Jesus, what break the Lord's heart, may it break mine.

I cried out to God, that He may be patience with my sins and the sins of the church. May he come back soon...

Friends, ARISE CHURCH!

I'm sorry that I have no other "watering down" way to tell you the urgency for us to be self-denial. I know its hard when you guys have a bright life ahead of you. Friends, let's put away our selfish and sinful way of life, let's be self-sacrifice, God need young people who do not live for themselves to build a stronger church.

If you are convicted to do something but not sure and afraid to commit, would you pray this prayer with me together.

" Lord Jesus, I surrender to your Lordship. I Praise you for your Deity, my Savior. I heard your calling my Lord that the harvest in Malaysia is plentiful but the worker is few and my heart are convicted. I want to answer to your call, Yes Lord, take my life Lord and use it. I do not know what I need to do next but Lord may I have a surrendering and obedience heart to follow your will. Thank you for your love to me, your grace and kindness to me are never ending. Give me boldness and a burning fire for what is of your heart. In Jesus name I pray Amen"

Who will God send to Temenggor, Perak?

gracie, we should plan a mission trip to Temenggor =) What say you?

Where are the People whom heart God is at work?

Youths - just a feeling

Wowowo, read an article today and found this very power statement made toward "youths"

Whether the statement was true or not about youths today? You decide.

Will this statement provoke you or the other way round? I ll pray for you.

"Youths they no longer rely on God's objective truth to dictate what is right and wrong. Rather they rely on their feelings to determine whether or not something is right for me at that moment!!!"


True and very dangerous!

To grab each breath that the Lord gives.

Today Devo.

2 Peter 3:8
"With the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day."

Recently, I'm desperately in need of God's strenght. I was worn out from working, from running here and there and from trying to fulfill all the work which required from me. But the Lord was gracious in seeing me through.

As I was struggling with the pressure from all these stress, I realize deep down I was actually struggling from the pressure of a city's life, where all things done in a fast pace, where I need to run from one conference to another, where I need to catch up with the world in youths culture. I can hardly grab a moment of life that passes by.

What a waste! God has given us life which is so wonderful and beautiful, but sadly many times we have just easily let life pass it by just like that.

I believe when God say, "With the Lord one day is as a thousand years..." He also want us to know how precious each breath which he has given us and we are to enjoy and look life in one day as like a thousand years.

Take time to breathe take time to look enjoy each day. Take time to look at the wonderful world and creation which the Lord has created, which revealed His Glory. Take time to live this life with God...
each step at a time....

May the Lord bless you day..

My favorite Psalm

My favorite Psalm

Psalm 139

O Lord you have searched me and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise;

You perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down;

You are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue

You know it completely, O Lord.

You hem me in - behind and before;

You have laid your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,

Too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?

Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;

If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn,

If I settle on the far side of the sea,

Even there your hand will guide me,

Your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me

And the light become night around me,”

Even darkness will not be dark to you;

The night will shine like the day,

For darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being;

You knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

You works are wonderful,

I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you

When I was made in the secret place.

When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

You eyes saw my unformed body.

All the days ordained for me

Were written in your book before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!

How vast is the sum of them!

Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.

When I awake, I am still with you.

If only you would slay the wicked, O God.

Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

They speak of you with evil intent;

You adversaries misuse your name.

Do I hate those who hate you, O Lord,

And abhor those who rise against you?

I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive ways in me,

And lead me in the way everlasting.

Delilah is back to town!

Wowowo… how POWERFUL the luring and the charms of a women to a men!

Today (24/8/08) I went out with some of my friends, contain both boys and girls. One of my friends was precious beauty to the eyes of the guys in the group. After some time of chatting, and some “heehee and haahaa”, miraculously my friend was able to make one of the guy to pay for her meal. Wowowo!!

At that time, I was thinking in my heart that, “Men are Dumb”. (It will make a good movie title) Maybe when I’m broke next time, I can do the same thing like my friend, so maybe I can get some free meals. I was tempted to proceed with such an evil plan, however very quickly I came to my senses and I ask does the “heehee and haahaa” makes me become more like the virtuous wife, which I always longing to be or will I be similar to a Delilah?

My friend really has the charm, she can charm almost all men with her “heehee and haahaa”, and I would not blame her for I think her effort and working or the “heehee and haahaa” does pay off. The footprint of the item I saw the other day written “Men are Dumb”.

Well, being a Delilah have its goods, they basically can get what they want with their “heehee and haahaa” If the things got to do with Delilah, I want no part in it. Being the virtuous wife may not get me free meals but it’s ok. At least it can contribute a little by giving Glory to GOD.

Oh, it’s a virtuous wife, is all I want to be!

P/S: I saw a billboard on the road to heaven that says, “Are men dumb?” (hehe)

No wonder the strongest men on earth Samson lose his battle to a small little

woman name Delilah….. Aiyo Men, you can do better than this la!!

I apologies if I had offended any man out there. Please accept my “heehee and haahaa”